So this will be the first of what I hope to be many posts. Honestly though while my current intentions are great, I've not always been the best at keeping journals or blogs or what ever. However, I see the true worth in them, and see even more worth in a journal I can share.
I have learned in this life that people are not meant to be alone. We simply function better as a group and working together. Much like a pack of wolves. The pack remains strong if they work together. I wish to protect the pack the best I can because I believe that life is beautiful and everyone around you matters. That is why I chose to use my Gaelic name: Shield Wolf as my blog name. We are all in this together at this point, and I wish to do what I can for the whole pack.
To start let me introduce my self. My Name is Rand. I work as a correctional officer because it is a reliable job that will always ensure my own den is healthy. While there are good times and I love those I work with, I don't truly enjoy my job. But I do it because like I said, it will always keep my den healthy as long as I can survive the stress that accompanies it.
I grew up in a small Mormon town in the middle of central Utah. In school I was never popular and I understand now why that was. I don't hold it against those I grew up with however for out casting me, truth is I was different and they were probably scared of that to some degree. They were only doing what they felt was necessary to survive.. and lets face it I was definitely on the off putting side. In fact in light of my title of this post lets put it in perspective: I simply brought about my lonely childhood because of my own actions. I can look back now and fully see why it was hard to find friends.
But despite the slight bullying I did not experience true school violence like some must endure today and for that I am grateful. I also was lucky enough to have 4 of the best friends that someone could ever ask for. And for the longest time they managed to see through my quarks and remain friends anyways.
I have been married twice and am currently working on my second divorce and my 3rd serious adult relationship; don't get any ideas though I will cover that in other posts I'm sure.
I have many faces to my self which I hope to share as time goes on; some of which include a very child like side, a very adult serious side, a side with unmatched anger and rage, and a side with undying patience and love. I love out doors and yet I'm a computer nerd. I hunt and write code, fish and play final fantasy. I can weld the frame together on a truck, or reformat a computer and find all the drivers. Simply put; i'm incredibly dynamic. If I need something done i learn to do it on my own; and that will lead to another post as well. (in fact I should start titling these before I forget!)
My purpose for this blog is for me to get things down on "paper" so that i can review them and reflect, but also because I want someone who needs something I have discovered to be able to find it when they need it. So that I can help the pack, while helping my self.
I think that is enough for now. I hope that this is not the only post I ever write here!
